There are some really cool bloggers out there!

I was speaking at a table in AA and I said how cool it was that I can say anything I want and they all have to listen to me (at least they look like they are listening). I was talking about how weird the world is and how most people have an answer for everything. You can't just talk to talk, people feel like it is there obligation to save you from your thoughts/words and make suggestions on how to handle your life or a particular situation. Blog world is kind of like an AA meeting. I say whatever I want and you can choose to read it or not. Kind of cool when you think about it. Personally, I love the comments. I think that people should express how they feel and share their thoughts with me on what I am blabbing about.

I am planning on a huge change in my life. I am going on a very strict diet and I will be dropping some weight (I hope). I just want people to know, that I am who I am. Gaining weight, losing weight, no matter what I am the same person and have the same feelings. Sometimes when people change their life (especially in such a positive way), others cannot accept the change for whatever reason. I have been sober (like I mentioned in previous posts) for almost two years, and people still have a hard time asking me to do things with them when alcohol is involved because I don't drink. I say to those people that they must not want to ask us/me out, because anyone who makes excuses for me or for my husband about going out for an evening or even to someone's house has no clue who we really are. I hope I am not treated that way while I am dieting because I cannot eat food like I used too????

We always hope for change in positive directions, but that is not always what we get. I am staying strong and facing my problems head on. Some are resolved, but many are not. I continue to work on them, and they just make me a better person.

I am finding the strength I need in my husband. He has encouraged me, and has convinced me that I can get through this and he is the one person I can always go to when I need to cry or to laugh. We face many problems together and we will continue to work together through the next set of hurdles we come too! I help him , he helps me, we are a team!!

We are ready for life!!!! In some way, I find serenity in that. I am not alone (I find serenity in that too)! I have a lot of support and the important people in my life, those I am in constant contact with, know exactly what I am capable of and that I can achieve anything! Thank you all so much for your support and guidance. This is a scary journey, and I promise to update you on how much weight I am losing and how things are going!

I have to say thanks to my Mom, Laura, & Becca. I was having a tough night tonight (hubby was at work) and they were able to make me see that life is exactly what you make it. No one else can change it for you. Live it to the fullest, love all that you can, and do what makes you happy!

I will probably not post again till Saturday! (I do have a funny picture to post, and if I get a chance I may post it tomorrow or Thurdsay).

Thanks to all of you! Your awsome!!!